Old Habits

Here it comes, another Phish post. Let me apologize in advance, it has to be done though.

I got in to work this morning and turned on livephish.com as I so often do (if you've never checked it out, you should, they do live streaming radio from the Phish archives, definitely helps me get through the day). Anyway, since Coventry, my feelings about the boys have been varied; anger, sadness, happiness and pretty much every emotion in between. But, I am back on the train, so to speak, and listening to them on a pretty constant basis again. But the one thing I have made a conscious effort not to listen to since the end has been the six sets from Coventry. I remember it all so well and I have thought better of reliving all of the insane emotions that I (and we all) felt during that crazy weekend. So, as I was saying, I turn on livephish.com, and the encore from Coventry, "The Curtain With" is playing. I will never forget those last moments on the hill at Coventry, standing with all of my friends as the boys sang, "please me, have no regrets". I will never forget the insane cheering that erupted from the crowd when the song ended, I will never forget seeing their bus pull away across the night sky and I will never forget the eerie silence of 75,000+ people when we all realized that this was definitely it. Listening to this song brought me right back there, to a small town in Vermont almost a year ago. The question is-what am I getting at here? And the answer-I'm not really 100% sure.

I have tried so many times to sit and write about my experiences in Northern Vermont over those 4 days last August, but every time the words escape me. Anyone who was there understands. On a very personal level, that weekend was nothing less than a major end of an era for me and I will always think of Coventry as a major turning point in my life, yet still, nearly a year later, I can't put it behind me.

"But the toughest thing I ever gave up was today; cause old habits like you are so hard to break."